Current location:	study
Current mood:	happy

here comes the warm machine
its not a bad day outside, wish i had something to do that didn't involve spending money. i got my bill a few days ago and it was like $699.00 . jesus, i really have to stop spending.

so last night i had the weirdest dream and sometimes i think i may be psychic and that my dreams could be telling the future, and sometimes i think thats the stupidest thing i've ever heard, but anyway it went like this :
me and my sister were driving along and i didn't realize this at the time but later on i did so i guess we were with some babies that i look after at my work. the ones i remember were aidan, little chino baby, and i think it was colin. anyway casey looks out the window and says mars looks bigger than normal. and i look out (i am the one driving) and see it and its like the size of a quarter in the sky. next time i look at it its getting bigger. its coming towards us. its getting bigger and bigger because its obviously getting closer and its going to hit us. i take in the fact that we are about to die and i look at casey and think the words "i love you and i'm glad we are together if it has to end like this" . and i know thats sappy and its funny because now i know casey will be reading this, but its true. the words couldn't come out because i guess at the point oxygen wasn't there or it was just.. sucked out of me.. i don't know. anyway, we don't die. my dream acts like a movie and time rewinds like 15 minutes and i don't even realize it till i look at the babies clothes and they have on the same outfits. so stupid, i know, but for me its creepy i guess because i had the dream and its much more life-like than anyone else could imagine. anyway i don't do a damn thing, its like time rewound but nothing really changes. except i think i do manage to say those words to casey and then it rewinds again! or maybe it doesn't i don't know, but one of these times when i look at the planet like shoveling towards us really close, before it hits, a UFO comes right in front of it and i say "oh no its the aliens!" and all of a sudden i'm naked and i'm like GRAB A BLANKET to casey because i didn't want the aliens to see me naked. ok i just read that and it sounds sick, but i swear nothing gross happened. i was just naked for some reason. so like aliens abduct us and i think thats when i woke up. crazy huh??

alright anyway,
i checked the voicemail today for the house phone and GUESS WHO CALLED!?!? colleen from about care ob/gyn saying she would LOVE to meet me and set up an interview for monday at 930 in the morning. called her back a while ago and set it up.
i don't know if my nerves will kick in monday morning, but i've had this outlook like i don't really care what happens. don't get me wrong - i Do definately care, but its like i'm relaxed, i'm just going to be myself, tell her what i want to do in my life and what i am doing currently. its like when i had that interview for the animal place that was too far away. before the interview was set up, the woman called me and asked me some questions and we talked for a good 10 minutes. i was totally relaxed just saying everything thats going on in my life and what i wanted to achieve by becoming a vets assistant.
i don't know. interviews are different though. like i have to sell myself. i think i could answer every question fairly well but my most disliked one has to be "what is one of your flaws?" because you can't just say "well i come in late sometimes...hungover some days"
you have to say something that is going to sell yourself like "well i'm a bit of neat freak and i just love to be organized" or "i have this flaw where i can't really start something until i have finished any other started tasks"
its so stupid!! and i feel like an absolute moron when i say these stupid lines. but whatever.......

so i don't know how much to ask for. i know they are going to ask me what i want and right now i make $9 so anything above that would be great! but i really want to see if i could get like 12 bucks out of them. is that too much? my dorky butt looked online to see how much medical receptionists make and someone else had a similar question. but they had already been working and were talking about the raise they got was too small they thought. she said she was making 11 and got a 75 cent raise and thought she should have gotten more. so i was thinking maybe asking for 11.

alright well i'm going to stop right there because this is pretty damn long.