Current location:	study - where else?
Current mood:	frustrated
Current music:	black eyed peas - gone going

i've lost all motivation
what the hell is wrong with me?! i mean all i ate this morning was the weight smart oatmeal - only one packet! - and some fruit like strawberries and raspberries, so i still have a chance to eat smart today but i think about the foods that i bought just last week and i feel sick when i think about eating them. its like i want pasta and mashed potatoes, quesadillas and burritos. but instead i have salad and vegetables. i bought this 6-pack of chicken breasts and i don't even want those!! goddd

so i went to the gym last night , good right? well i got home and not too much later i decide to work out to my Denise Austin bootcamp tape. well not even half way through i get a headache from jumping around and i couldn't continue. i just feel so pathetic. i don't know if my mind just wanted to get a headache so i couldn't work out anymore or WHAT!
fuck i need a personal trainer and a gourmet chef who only makes healthy foods that are yummy yummy.

ha anyway i have work in two hours. i need to take a shower. maybe i should squeeze in a workout before i take my shower. i feel like i've been so much more active than i have in a really long time.. and i don't see results! just sore legs and butt :-/

anyway my mood is little ferret heads!! yay i'm so happy they had those. i was looking page after page thinking wouldn't that be great if they had ferret heads, and sure enough on like the fifth page, FERRET HEADS!

i really do love my babies. i walked into my room and i guess i hit butterball (the new edition, light colored hair and very faT!) with the door and he ran under my dresser thing and i could see his bottom half sticking out and his little tail wagged and it was absolutely ADORABLE. and then the other day i saw the cutest thing - ok so i have this huge cage with four floors. 2nd and 4th floors have hammocks. usually butterball is on the first floor sleeping, pepper likes the 2nd floor hammock and mitzy likes the 4th floor hammock. well i walked in to my room a day or two ago and they were all piled on the the 2nd floor hammock! pepper wasn't even all the way on, but he was sleeping just fine with half of his body on the floor of the cage and the top half on the hammock!!!!!!! ahh they really are my life, just wait till i have fucking kids.

i think about that.... i mean i said wait till i have kids thinking i will be nutso about them.. but then i wonder 'will i still have time for ferrets?'

granted, i wont give them away NO WAY NO HOW, but after they pass on (please never), will i get new ferrets? will i have time for them when i'm older and have a family? i hope so. i'm sure many people do that.
alright well i'm so godamn boring so bye