Current mood:

curious

two bowls of ice cream and five truffles later...
yeah. Yeah.
and those truffles were 50 calories a pop.

i'm so dead.
like i am beyond belief.
but i'm going to the gym tonight so maybe that will make up for some of the stuff??
i can't believe i did it again. like today was THE day to get back on the wagon. but i just fell further.

so the people didn't call yet. this is disappointing. am i getting shafted here? like i thought i got the job? she said, and i quote, "you will hear from me either tomorrow or wednesday as to whether or not dr. decosimo wants you to work part time or full time. how could this be happening? why hasn't she called me yet? and if for WHATEVER reason she was sick or couldn't get ahold of her, wouldn't she just call me to tell me this? bah i'm so confused. i think if she doesn't call tomorrow i will call her on Monday. thats sufficient time, right?

god my brother is telling my mom she is an asshole. you know, he has called me bitch like a million times and doesn't get punished? oh yes, he says it in front of my mom. he says fuck you often as well. Fuck, i would give anything to have that if i was his age. he doesn't get punished for shit. i mean they yell at him but hes just so fucking crazy that he doesn't actually get anything taken away. its so... sad. like i want to be jealous because he must think hes pretty cool. but hes going to grow up so fucked up. hes not going to know when to stop anything.. i mean he already treats the friends he has like shit. hes very...... self centered.
also he drinks like two cokes a day, if not more. his teeth are going to be FUUCCKKEEDD. they are going to fall out on his 18th birthday. i mean damn.

alright well casey just called me saying shes on her way , so i better go get ready for the gym. toodooloo!