Current location:	study
Current mood:	lazy
Current music:	nothing but a song by Bush is stuck in my head

new journal
so here is the deal - i made this livejournal because i'm bored and i don't know if or how often i will update it, but it sounded like fun. i get to bitch and moan and if other people out there are bored, they can choose to read what i have to say.

hopefully, i don't offend others in the process or get too personal but i highly doubt anyone will bother reading this anyway so here i go.

today was fine. thats the only word i could think of to complete that sentence. really like any other day though. since i slacked off in signing up for classes, i am taking this semester off. from going to nova. how sad is that? i swear to myself up and down that i will take classes in the summer and catch up and i know i will, i'm not going to let myself sink down into that downward spiral that i hear so many people doing.

currently i'm working at a private school but i guess its more like a daycare because i work in the infant room. i have worked there for just about a year and its time for my raise but i don't know that i will be working there much longer. my raise will probably be something like 32 cents and as much as i enjoy working there (most of the time), its not something that i see me doing in the future and i really want to get career related jobs.. for experience. i had an interview to be a vets assistant and i've always wanted to be a vet when i was a kid - didn't everyone? - so i thought maybe this is something i'd want to get into. they were willing to train me since i have absolutely no experience so i thought this would be great but i cancelled the interview because the damn place was 45 minutes out. fuck, i can't even get to the job i have now on time and its 20 minutes away.
literally, for the past month (since i've been out of school) i've been going to my job 2:30 or later and i'm supposed to be there at 2:00. every day i wake up around noon and tell myself this will be the day i will be there on time. HA, what a joke. but no one has said anything about it.

so anyway i know this is gross but while at the gynocology office the other day i was talking to my doctor during the exam and got onto the subject of me wanting a full time job in the medical field so i could get a feel for it. then she asks me how i would feel about being a receptionist at their office! how weird! so she gave me a number to fax my resume to and i did and for some reason i'm really excited. the place is like 2 minutes away from my house and this should (with hope!) give me some kind of experience. not that i would EVER want to be a gynocologist, but this would be a step in the right direction.. right??

i told my mom of course and she starts talking about how "maybe you could be like dr.decosimo!!!!" fuuuuuuuuuuuck no. in no way will be fingering like 20 women a day as a job. godamn, why would my mom think to say that? she goes "you could deliver babies!!!" she thinks for some reason that because i like babies and kids, that i would enjoy delivering babies. i don't think so.

anyway sorry this is such a long and LAME post. i will get better i swear. alright i feel like shit i'm going to bed. hey, maybe i'll make it to work on time tomorrow :)